For me, it really was just reading the traditionalist authors and when i began to understand the symbolism and the beauty of it all, it was like something just clicked in my brain. I already had far-right political view at that point and was already anti-modernist, so i really wanted to understand why our ancestor thought the way they did. It always seemed ridiculous to me, to consider religion something that was simply made up, and that people began to take very seriously because they were dumb and ignorant. I'm writing this in the context that i ordered a book named "5 proofs of the existence of god", not because i'm doubtful but more to use in arguments against atheists. I've got to say however, that from what i know until now about these philosophical arguments that try to "prove" god's existence, i find them to be very lacking. I highly doubt that a single atheist became religious because of them, in fact i think that you could make the most perfect philosophical argument in favor of god's existence that was completely irrefutable, and still you wouldn't manage to convert one atheist. I just find them to be always lacking, given the fact that since they're on the level of philosophy and discursive reasoning, you can always come up with some counter-arguments and you can never arrive at a final decision. I've also ordered the book "science delusion" by robert sheldrake, which uses scientific evidence, not to prove the existence of god although the author does believe in god, but to support a generally non-materialist view of the world, alongside the books by Dean Radin, which is a para-psychologist, whose work mostly deals with psychic abilities. Out of curiosity, did anyone here start believing in god due to having some sort of "mystical" experience? Does anyone here have psi abilities like clairvoyance since an early age?